I have had some heaviness in my heart and my soul lately as I feel I am being judged by those around me both personally and professionally. Maybe I'm always under the microscope of others but the soul restoration work has led me to be more sensitive to it. I don't know.
Today, I had a bit of an AHA moment though as I came to ask myself "Perhaps it is me who should be questioning the character of those who have come forward to question my character?" and even more importantly "Who should I allow to be in the position of power to judge my character?"
The soul restoration process has involved
#1 establishing a mission statement with values I will live my life by and
#2 setting rules and priorities that will enable me to live my life in accordance my mission and values.
In this new world order, am I not holding the gavel myself rather than allowing others to sit as judge or jury over my character?
It does not feel good to be judged or criticized by others especially if you happen to care about them and maybe even value their opinion. But life is a tough gig and frankly I'm tired of being so hard on myself. Instead, I'm working on accepting myself ~ strengths and weaknesses all in ~ and showing myself compassion. So after a long thought provoking day, I've decided to remind myself that I am okay with who I am, I am proud of my character and strength. I, in fact, am enough.